MY Day

In my last post I said...'Me and Jesus meet everyday for a cup of coffee before I start my day'.

Does anyone see anything wrong with that sentence? I do. I start MY day with Jesus and then leave Him there in MY bedroom as I go on with MY day. And then once MY day is over I come back to MY room and there He is just sitting on my bed right where I left Him waiting for me.

I was hit that with pretty hard this week...because I realized that is exactly what I've been doing. Me and Jesus meet every morning, but then I was just leaving Him behind. Everyday He would ask me if He could come and I just didn't want to be bothered because I had so much to do and so much going on. I've made Him out to be like a puppy or a little brother. I'll play with you when I want but then when I've got to go that's it.

Selfish right? Yep...that is it exactly. That is what I'm facing this week-my own selfishness. Pretty ugly, huh? I'll say. Hasn't been easy to take a look inside and see that but it is what it is and Jesus has been forgiving and patient as we deal with what we are looking at.

I'm striving to make Him apart of EVERYTHING I do. I want Him to go to work with me. and to the gym. and the coffee shop. I want Him to be the first one I call when I get good news. or bad news. I've had so much going on this past week and I've been feeling a little burnt out. I've come to realize it's because I was trying to do it all on my own...and it was working, but barely and it wouldn't of lasted long at the rate I was going. He is WAY stronger and smarter than me...and He desperately wants to be apart of ALL my life NOT just the beginning and the end.

That's where I'm at tonight...that's what I'm dealing with...there I go being selfish again...That's what WE'RE dealing with. ; )

So thankful He waited around for me and is still offering to do life with me.