Uncertainties

I've been in an odd frame of mind all day. Not quite sure what is going on, I think reality is starting to set in.

I'm dealing with a lot of uncertainities here lately. It is definately an opportunity to trust God. It's easy to trust God when you know exactly what life holds...but once you step into the unknown its a whole new ball game. He has never not taken care of me in the past, and if I look back to the last few months I can see His hand all over my life.

I'm currently reading The Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren. Great book, very challenging. It's more like a 40 day devotional. You read a chapter a day and reflect. Todays reading was about how life is a test and a trust. The reflection question was, 'what has happened to me recently that I now realize was a test from God?'. I feel as if I'm at that exact place right now as I write.

I've been home from Mercy now all of 18 days...I've been going going going since I stepped off the plane. I'm exhausted. My brain hurts...this evening I attempted to relax and just watch tv and I couldn't sit still. All I can think about is the week ahead of me...and the lovely task of going out to look for a job.

God is testing me. He wants to be apart of my ENTIRE life...I've been holding back. I have a tendancy to limit Him sometimes. I'm limiting Him. No more of that, the box I have put Him in is busting at the seems-He is too big for it! Just had a mini revelation...This blogging thing isn't so bad after all.

Going to hang out with Jesus...we've got some things to talk about.