6 months vs. 3 weeks

Very eventful day.


Breakfast with my cousin...waffles, made in a old fashioned waffle maker that smells like old people. Classic. Spent majority of the morning loving on her three precious children. We played house, and doctor, and policeman, and we colored too. So much fun. It really helped me to focus in on the here and now and just enjoy what I was doing with no hidden agenda.

I went over to there house at 8 a.m. with a whole list in the back of my mind of things that needed to be accomplished...something that will definately destroy trying to focus in on the here and now. Once we started to play I totally forgot and had so much fun. I spent the morning in a child like state on my hands and knees using my imagination.

Came home and started to 'get things done'...nothing pressing really just little things that have been on my 'list' that I'm sick of staring at. Can we say procrastinator? Yea, I can admit to that. We've all got our stuff...something I need to work on...I'll keep you posted on how thats going : )

Spent my late afternoon in the gym getting my butt kicked. Mycousin is going to be training me to get me toned up...from here on out he will be referred to as the drill sargeant. All I can say is he doesn't take no for an answer. I suppose this will help me work on submission. I'm expecting to not be able to walk in the morning.

New Greys tonight! Any fans? I'm pretty pumped. Me and Babs have a date, and I'm excited because my family was awesome enough to record them for me while I was away. So of course upon my return I pulled an all nighter and got all caught up. Hooray!



Two things on my heart tonight...

1. Doing vs. Being-something I'm known to get caught up in easily. I was writing someone an email expressing my struggle in this area and then I went downstairs to read day 9 of the Purpose Driven Life book and stumbled across these verses...

Hosea 6:6 'I don't want your sacrifices-I want your love; I don't want your offerings-I want you to know me.

*All I can say about this one is how cool? All God wants is us. Exactly how we are. He just wants us to get to know Him to love Him, not to prove our love or go out of our way to get His attention...He wants us just to be.

Ps. 37:23 'The steps of the godly are directed by the Lord. He delights in every detail of their lives.'

*The word that stuck out here was EVERY. He wants to be involved in it ALL. Not some. But ALL. He cares about it ALL. There is no other way to say it.


Ps. 103:14 'He certainly knows what we are made of. He bears in mind that we are dust.'

*This one just threw me over the top. He gets it. He knows its hard for us to live a life of faith. He has compassion on us. Compassion is the capacity to feel what another is feeling. So not only does our God see, know and understand whats going on in our hearts and lives, BUT he feels it. You know how it is when someone you love is hurting or going through something...it hurts you to see them hurt. That is exactly how God is with us. If that isn't comforting I don't know what is.


The only way to explain it is to tell you what someone else told me. 'God is never late, rarely early, and ALWAYS on time'. He knew I needed to read those exactly when I did. He continues to amaze me.

2. The title of my post is 6 months vs. 3 weeks. I've been home all of three weeks yesterday. It is crazy when I sit back and compare all that God has done and all the difference of who I was six months ago and who I am now. So much has happened in six months...I can't even begin to put into words the transformation God has done on my heart. God has used the last three weeks to show me areas that need to be worked on and the part I play in our relationship. I'm so thankful his grace covers me in this area.

Very grateful tonight. Grateful for grace, mercy, unconditional love, forgiveness, acceptance, and redemption. Good stuff.

Time for Greys!