Encouraged

I woke up this morning at 7:01 and was in the car to leave for church at 7:05. Waking up late is one of the worst feelings in the world. I felt so rushed and so completely out of it. I was super crabby and let everyone in the car know it. I was so crabby that no one even asked to take a ride to the store with me once we got to the building. Not one of my finest moments. I went to the store alone and tried to 'get myself together' before heading back to the building.

I got back to church not so crabby, but definately feeling defeated. I was questioning myself on everything I was doing. Why am I here? Am I suppose to be doing children's ministry? Has God really called me to do this? Am I making a difference? Whats the point? This morning I went through the motions and just 'did' church.

I was super discouraged and almost had myself completely talked into quitting doing children's ministry. I was acting out of my feelings and letting them get the best of me.

Let me back up for a moment...I had an encounter with God this week. Several actually. He has been speaking to me daily about an assortment of things. He has been speaking to me about everything BUT the one thing I'm really seeking Him on...I'm confident He's working on it and moving on my behalf, but He isn't cluing me in.

After an amazing week of hearing God's voice I was still feeling defeated and discouraged. After service today I was extremely encouraged and God knew I needed it at that exact moment. He let me throw my fit and freak out, but right when I was ready to give in He stepped in to remind of who He is.

I had lost a nursery worker and was worried on how I was going to fill the spot. After service I was handed a piece of paper with a phone number of someone who is interested in serving in the nursery.

For weeks now I've had something on my list of things to do that I kept putting off. I didn't want the church to have to spend the money on a TV/VCR for the nursery. The workers had requested one, but I didn't feel it was a necessity so I kept putting it off. This morning someone randomly came up to me and asked if I needed one. That person had no clue I was looking for one.

Only God. I was so encouraged. God used those two situations to show me that He is working on my behalf-even on the things I don't bother to talk to Him about. If He is working on the things we don't talk about how much more is He working on the things we do talk about? He showed me that He cares about my worries and that even when I don't see or feel Him working-HE IS.

Even more encouraging I had 12 kids in my class today and 26 total within all three classes. He's got me right where He wants me...for now.