Last Week

I'm horrible at updating this thing...I've been so busy. I always say that I have so much going on, but it really is true. Let me give you a glimpse into the past week.

Started school again.
Parents were attacked and hospitalized for dog bites.
Grandma passed away.
Gave my puppy up for adoption.
Still sick, not sure what it is yet.
Spoke to a group of teenagers.
Worked 25 hours in 3 days.

Lots going on. That's just a glimpse of this past week. I'm pretty worn out.

But the encouraging things is I can see God working ALL around me. Bible study last night was so challenging and encouraging. We started this study a couple months ago with three people and a vision for transparency and authenticity. God has continued to move every week.

Last night someone said something that I can't get out of my head...He said that if you were to take just the last week of his life and lay it out for someone to look at that the person would most likely have no idea that he was a follower of Jesus Christ. First of all, I so appreciate his honesty. But almost as soon as the words came out of his mouth I felt like I had the wind knocked out of me. The same goes for me...if you laid out the last seven days of my life for someone they would have no clue that I was a follower of Jesus. Sure, I had occasionally cracked open my bible and listened to worship music. But most likely my actions and mouth would have almost totally cancelled that out. That literally breaks my heart.

What image are you giving Jesus? How does your life reflect His sacrifice? I mean isn't that the purpose of our existence, to show others Jesus? I want people to see a difference in me. I want to be known for making Him known.

Thinking about what that is suppose to look like...Excited for what God is doing and how I can feel Him tugging at my heart. His love never gives up...I can hear Him calling and I'm running straight for Him.

Good Day

What a day! Long but Good. Went to go visit my brother today, made the four hour drive to and from all in the same day. I wouldn't trade this day for a million dollars. I got to spend the whole day with my parents, see my brother and have some amazing laughs. Great memories and conversation. At this exact time last year I wasn't even speaking to my parents. On the way home, I even had the opportunity to pray for my mom after she had gotten a phone call that made her cry. God has done so much restoration its unbelievable. If you would have asked me at this time last year if I could have forseen this coming, I probably would have responded with something like 'over my dead body'.

Aren't you so glad that God is in control? That His plan and purpose trumps ours? If last Mother's Day had to be horrible in order for this Mother's Day to be fantastic it was so worth it. God knew what He was doing even when I doubted and waivered. I find so much security in that tonight.

I'm sleepy, long day tomorrow but totally looking forward to it.